There’s this guy. He is something so special and so rare. Something so sensible and pure. He took the girl who was broken when he found her and he supported her while she found all the missing pieces and super glued herself back together. He is a truly good man.
I pushed him so far, so many times, and break up after break up, he remains here for me. He remains standing beside me in whatever role I need him to play. He is supportive and encouraging. He doesn’t always understand, but he tries to. He makes me laugh when that is the last thing I feel like I could do. He puts a smile on my face without even trying simply because of who he is. He chooses to be a part of my life. He repeatedly chooses to stay when I give him so many chances to run.
He respects me and he understands that I have a hard time with certain things, like sex. I have a very hard time with sex sometimes. Tonight, I had a hard time with it, mainly because we were on a time limit and that messed with my anxiety, but still. He told me, “it’s not about the sex, it’s about getting to spend time with you” and then he kissed me. That is not the first time he has said that to me, it’s just the first time that I truly believed him. He doesn’t have expectations of me. He has always just wanted me around. He likes having me there. He likes me for who I am, even if I don’t even really know who that is yet.
He is so pure. So good. So kind and supportive. I am so grateful that he is a part of my life even if we’re on a sliding scale between friends and lovers. I don’t mind because he’s here. I don’t mind because I am the one in full control of that scale. I decide where we are. I decide what we do, and he is okay with that. He made that decision. Are there things I don’t love about him, of course, #human, but he is this amazing guy that I am so lucky to have in my life and I felt like I needed to share just a little bit about him. I wanted to let someone, anyone, know that there are good people out there. There are people who will truly love and care for you, you just have to let yourself find them and let yourself be raw with them.